Friday

Fat Ticker Friday

Good morning!

Sick of hearing about my sickhouse yet? I am. It hit hubby today. Good times.

But as a result, and unsurprisingly, I have had no change. Yep. Zero. Nada. In a choice to remain at home or go to the gym as a sniffy-sneezy-coughy-achy-stuffyhead-person, I chose home.

It doesn't help that these last few pounds are clinging for dear life and that I need to do more, rather than less.


But the fact that I don't look like this anymore helps me:

This was my Aha! moment.

Lovely.

Things always happen in threes for me. The first evil thing was this picture taken at a birthday party earlier this year. HELLO! That alone should be the wakeup call. I cried when I saw that the fat chick holding the baby was, indeed, ME! That had never been me. How did that become me? Why? Why why why??

The next thing was when a family member said something to me, something about how I once was an athlete, the key word being "was" in the sentence. One of those things where you read way too much into a sentence but the fact that the word "was" was used was intriguing to me. Because at that moment, I wasn't. I was not an athlete at that moment, that much could be said. But the sentence made me think about who I actually am and made me really want to be who I thought I could be again. Make sense? And said family member should know, by the way, that saying this was actually a good thing because it became part of my trifecta of motivation. The third thing was when I did silly little things like parking really far away and gardening, really just in an effort to physically move around more and WHOA! I lost 5 pounds! It was magic! So I guess there were two bad things and 1 good (cup-half-full-girl).

So after all that self-pity and sorrow over who I was and who I had become, and the tears, my God the tears, I flopped onto the couch, opened up the laptop and signed up for the 5k in June. And I ran it 17 pounds lighter. Something was triggered in me, and it started like a lot of things do, with a picture.

Now I am a whole 30 pounds lighter, thanks to the fact that I kept going, and I am proud to say that right now, I AM NOT EMBARRASSED ABOUT MYSELF. I don't cry when I go into the dressing room, I have gotten checked out (in front of my husband!), I wear short-sleeves and tanktops with reckless abandon, I run around and wrestle with my kids, I'm not afraid of meeting new people, I can tell my husband thinks I'm cute (ahem), I probably can't even list the things that have changed since I started because literally, my whole life, outlook, self-image, everything has changed. Everything. Oh yes, and now I can run 5 1/2 miles.

So that was it. My "Aha". What was yours?

I'll be spending the rest of the weekend (again) in degerming and cleansing and trying to get back up to 100% but I have my final 5.5 mile run before the 10k and stay tuned, because some of you asked about keeping this going and I just may have another idea brewing...Bookmark and Share

27 comments:

  1. I'm back and I lost 7 pounds this week. It's been a very stressful couple of weeks for me, but I'm dealing with things a little better now. I have surrounded myself with picture of "skinny me" and quite honestly that has helped more than anything I have ever tried. I even have skinny pictures on my keychain to remind me even when I'm driving so I don't go through any drive thrus. It stopped me from getting Chinese last night so it worked!

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  2. I'm sorry you're still under the weather! Your first priority it to get well.

    I lost 1.2 pounds this week!

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  3. Looks like I'm down 0.5. Very meager but I suppose it's something.

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  4. Sorry to hear that your family is sick. :-( Hope they are feeling better soon. What Lori said about taking care of yourself!

    I am down 3 pounds since last Friday. And only 1 pound away from my "halfway to goal" milestone!

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  5. One pound lost this week. It's going in the right direction so I'm happy.

    Since we started I've officially lost 10 pounds! Yay!

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  6. Down 1 lb this week!!!! This sickness in our house has started as of last night.....we'll see who all of the victims are. I have a picture like yours!!! That was one aha moment. The other was my mother suggesting weight loss plans to me!!!!

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  7. I had a lazy week and lost nothing - no loss, no gain. I would like to say I will do better next week but it's Thanksgiving - we'll see!

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  8. Hey I'm down 1.4 lbs this week. I had a kinda lazy week as well. Trying to get ready for the holidays. I'm hoping for a bigger number this next week but.....there is Thanksgivng. I'll have to keep telling my slef NO!

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  9. Okay so I lied, I just updated my ticker and I'm actually down 2 lbs this week!!! Thats a little better. Sorry.

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  10. I lost 1.5 pounds this week. I am happy to be pushing through this plateau!

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  11. 1 lb down - yay! And I am so proud of you for sticking with it and losing 30! I usually get down about 15 and then give up and gain at least 10 of it back!

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  12. Sorry you're all sick! :(

    I'm not sure what my aha moment was...I've just been down and depressed about my size since my oldest was born 3 1/2 years ago and my body is refusing to change much. Sigh...

    But this week I did manage to lose 1.1 pounds. It's not much, but dang it I'll take it! Lol!

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  13. Hopefully everyone is better soon!

    I'm down 3 pounds this week.

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  14. Not happy!! Scale back up almost 5lbs!! Need to get things back in control!!!

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  15. Well, I think it's good news... We were traveling this week and visiting a place that might be our new home - so that included lots of eating and sitting, including two full days in the car driving. I got sick while we were there and am just now feeling a bit better. SO, lots of eating (I tried to be careful) and lots of sitting and next to NO exercise...

    and I'm EXACTLY the same, again. No change.

    So, I'm encouraged, 'cuz it means that I'm at least stable. But I hope to kick it in the butt this week!

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  16. i'm waaay behind on posting, so i'll prob have my fat ticker up later tonight...sometime after i see that bleedin' (no pun intended) twilight movie. hehe i have no change either...i didn't even commit fully to my vows yet. i suck. lol

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  17. I lost .2 lbs woo hoo! I am just so happy to have lost something. I seem to have been sitting the same or gaining. So I will take the .2 lb loss. Hopefully it will be more one day! But until then I will be happy.

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  18. Down .5 pounds this week. I'll take it. At least it's a loss.
    Hope everyone feels better soon!!

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  19. Checking in with a total loss of 1.2 lbs. this week. Keep it up everyone!

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  20. Put me DOWN for 3 LOST!!! Woohoo!

    And I'll take a shiny new badge, thankyouverymuch!!!!!

    Hope everyone gets to feeling better soon.

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  21. no loss-no gain. Too many Aha moments to count. I do really well and then it goes to crap after some time. The big 4-0 is less than 18 months away. I am tired of the same resoluton.

    meg

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  22. Sorry all - I gained 0.5 pound this week.

    Sorry also you're sick! We have all just finally gotten better here. Thank goodness!!!

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  23. i'm up 0.2 but am planning to have a great weigh in this next week...promise!

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  24. Great post! You are doing such a wonderful job, I hope I can follow in your footsteps.
    Been sick all week so I haven't been too active -- no weight loss.

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  25. Sorry to hear that ya'll been so sick!! Hope your all better soon! Had another Maintain week here. Errrr...dang it!!!

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