Later on today we will probably be making an important decision. One that we have been torn about for a couple of weeks now.
After all of the mulling over and experimenting at home and discussing, I think we have one in our minds. And I think it's clear and unemotional and right.
But honestly, what I really wish is that we wouldn't be having to make a decision at all. I wish that everything would have went smoothly and wonderfully and my son would have had a wonderful, enriching, educational experience for his very first year of school as a two-year-old and that everyone would have seen him as a bright little boy with a passion for learning.
That is, after all, what we see.
And it's beyond disappointing. It's heartbreaking.
The good part is that he thinks school has been the greatest experience ever. He is still excited about it and still gets all giddy about going. For that, I am happy. And it really has been a good experience, after all, as far as doing new things and learning new things. How can learning new things not be good?
Today I will need strength. I hope we will make the right decision. One that will help my son be the best he can be and feel confident enough to be that person. Because of all the things I've seen, I know that he has not been himself this year. I watch through the window and see a child who's just not comfortable enough to be himself. For whatever reason. And it hurts me.
I hope I will say all the things I want to say in the way I mean and want to say it.
But in the end, all I have to do is think about the person I know. I believe in Him and him. And I am sure the decision will make itself.
Wednesday
Decisions Decisions
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It will all work out...Believe that...have faith. You see his potential and as long as you keep focused on that it will all work out for the best...I truly believe that!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that you were put into this situation. Deciding out kids' future is always so stressful and emotional. I hope you find peace and I know you will.
ReplyDeleteYour little ones have the best tool that anyone can have in life - someone who believes in them and makes the best decisions for them, even when it's tough.
ReplyDeleteI know whatever you decide will be the best for your little guy. HUGS to you and I'm sorry that you were put in this position in the first place.
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